re-evaluation

Why am I spending time writing in here? I've been conscious of the fact that to a large extent, I can choose what I reveal of myself in this blog. Naturally, it seems to me that by writing in here, people will believe that they are gaining an insight into my mood, my thoughts and my beliefs. With this in the back of my mind, I will often not feel comfortable about writing certain things in here, hence I contemplate the things that I do end up typing more than I usually would when writing solely for myself. By making use of this realisation, I've been able to refine thoughts and ideas, and in the (most probably limited) times that I’ve been completely honest with myself, I've been able to take a closer look at who I am.

Hence, writing in this blog has been an extremely self-centred exercise of late. I have enjoyed writing in here but if I decide to continue writing in here in such a manner, I'm ultimately going to find my writing frustrating and pointless. Since returning from my holiday, would it be safe for me to assume that reading the majority of my posts has been like listening to someone tell an inside joke that isn't even intended to be funny?

I think that if I'm going to maximise the potential of this blog as an introspective tool, I'm going to have to fully embrace the fact that I'm writing in a public space, and not just have this fact as something sitting in the back of my mind.

Did that make absolutely no sense at all? Don't worry. That'll hopefully be the last humourless in-joke that I write.