not quite sane
It's been a while since my last entry. Co-op camp tomorrow. I haven't been getting much sleep. I feel a brief rant coming. I'm busy with responsibilities again, and all of the silent, contemplative gaps in my thoughts are being filled with incessant chatter once more. If university work has not yet overwhelmed me, it's certainly come close to doing so. I'm feeling the persistent nagging that results from always having work that can be done. What's more, basketball is consuming a lot of my time. I'm playing competitive games on Monday and Tuesdays, and the training sessions on Saturdays push me mentally and physically. I've just joined a Sunday competition as well, and I fit in gym sessions on days when I'm not playing basketball.
None of these activities are complelety necessary. I could easily quit going to the gym, playing basketball, or even uni. But I find that if I have a good approach towards the things that I do, I find great worth in doing such things. On the other hand, keeping busy doesn't mean that I can't also allow my life to turn into a mindless stupor, in which I have endless chores surrounded by intermittent leisure activities. Life's doldrums are seductive. I can easily wallow in my uni work, my thoughts about basketball, my worries, my responsibilities and my hobbies. Assignments, basketball, TV, computers, exams. Confusion, delusion, suffering. I can fall into a hole so deep that I just can't be bothered with trying to get out, and each day, as I get more and more comfortable, the world dims another shade.
But whether I'm confused and dim or clear and mindful, I'll always know that I can be happy, and that I needn't ever feel as though I'm trapped in a dark place. Why is it that I can potentially feel full by experiencing a falling leaf, listening to a bubbling brook, seeing patterns in spilt milk, hearing bugs chirp, seeing sunlight being reflected off my wrist-watch, watching a match being lit... anything? When I get a glimpse of this, I know that I'm more than my lifestyle, my friends, my hobbies, my beliefs or even my thoughts. So what am I when everything else is gone? What inspires me? I don't know, but I'm happy when I look and try to grow wiser from what I see.
None of these activities are complelety necessary. I could easily quit going to the gym, playing basketball, or even uni. But I find that if I have a good approach towards the things that I do, I find great worth in doing such things. On the other hand, keeping busy doesn't mean that I can't also allow my life to turn into a mindless stupor, in which I have endless chores surrounded by intermittent leisure activities. Life's doldrums are seductive. I can easily wallow in my uni work, my thoughts about basketball, my worries, my responsibilities and my hobbies. Assignments, basketball, TV, computers, exams. Confusion, delusion, suffering. I can fall into a hole so deep that I just can't be bothered with trying to get out, and each day, as I get more and more comfortable, the world dims another shade.
But whether I'm confused and dim or clear and mindful, I'll always know that I can be happy, and that I needn't ever feel as though I'm trapped in a dark place. Why is it that I can potentially feel full by experiencing a falling leaf, listening to a bubbling brook, seeing patterns in spilt milk, hearing bugs chirp, seeing sunlight being reflected off my wrist-watch, watching a match being lit... anything? When I get a glimpse of this, I know that I'm more than my lifestyle, my friends, my hobbies, my beliefs or even my thoughts. So what am I when everything else is gone? What inspires me? I don't know, but I'm happy when I look and try to grow wiser from what I see.
posted by Gene at 10:52 pm
Glad to hear that you liked the photos, thanks :)
The camera I used was a Nikon Coolpix 775. It's been nice and faithful to me, even though it wasn't a particularly fancy model when I bought it a couple of years ago. I was sucked in to buying it because it was on special at the time :P
Sorry if I'm going to be of absolutely no help, but I was pretty lost myself when I was initially looking for a camera, and I'm definitely not an expert when it comes to the latest gizmos available on the market. I reckon that just talking to the salespeople in camera stores will get you pretty well up to date on what's available these days. Doing that and and using what I found out as a starting point for a couple of web searches was basically how I got my head around things.
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