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I've noticed little signs of impatience and annoyance creeping into me. This morning I was rushing to leave home in time to catch my bus and was ready to put my glasses on and get out of the house, but I couldn't find the glasses. After a few moments of frantic searching I had to rush out without them. I grabbed my contact lenses to put in later on and travelled blindly to work. As I was walking quickly towards the bus stop, little pangs of pain jabbing my bruised right leg with every step, I let a feeling of irritability settle in.

I like to think that when I get annoyed, in most instances it doesn't take me long to put things in perspective and become calm again. So far this week, there have been a couple of instances where I've noticed frustration appearing where I normally wouldn't find it, and this frustration appeared to linger on longer than it normally would. I'm sure that it's because I had let myself focus very strongly on my physical condition since the accident and allowed this focus to take precedent over everything else. Every little unusual sensation in my body gained my attention. I'd never experienced such a big impact before and I did not know how my body would react, hence the close observation. I don't regret doing this, and am still amazed at how well I feel considering what happened. I do, however, regret allowing this focus on my physical condition to become an excuse for drifting into a state where I'm more likely to allow emotional responses take hold of me.